Sometimes, they follow me and became renunciate. And I sent them to various places, and the people bow to them too much, respect them too much, and so they think they are special. Sometimes they were stuck, didn’t react fast enough, that’s why they failed. First, if they failed and left [our group], they could not come back anymore, that’s the problem. Secondly, people love them too much, and sometimes they mistake that for personal love. Why do the people love us? People love our morality, our inner Light, and the blessing power from God and Buddha that is transmitted to us, so that we can go out and impart the initiation. […] And they mistakenly think that the people love them personally, and that’s their downfall. […] You have to understand that so you don’t fall, due to misunderstanding. […]
Only the initiates who are truly free, they can become renunciates. But not every renunciate can follow to help me spread the Dharma (True Teaching). They also need to have some affinity with the worldly people and good communication skills. If you talk wrongly, you may even harm my teachings. Sometimes my disciples don’t speak correctly and it makes people more annoyed. […] People don’t understand me, also because of you. Sometimes you say things that are not the same as what I said. You don’t know how to say it, meaning your talk might be a bit too plain, too candid, so people don’t understand. People mistakenly thought that we are involved in superstitions, so there were also misunderstandings. So sometimes if people out there misunderstood me, I don’t blame them at all. I know that there are all kinds of situations that could lead them to misunderstanding me. […] Therefore, if you can’t speak well, it’s better not to speak. If you want to help people, you have to do it gradually; you help yourself first. […]
At this time, I couldn’t go back yet. Not that I fear they would kill me if I go back there. […] if I go home but cannot speak publicly to the fellow initiates or to my co-citizens, then it doesn’t benefit anyone. I don’t go back just to prove that I can go back. If it benefits my country, my co-citizens, or at least the initiates, then I will go back. […] But if my going back there only benefits me and my family, then what’s the point of me going back? I didn’t practice spiritually for the sake of my family. My family already got the benefits. They all got initiated, became vegan, recite Buddha’s Names already, everyone in the family. […] Now, the same thing with going to China. I wouldn’t be permitted to openly see the initiates or the citizens. Therefore, there’s no benefit in me going there. […]
